Simulated Cum Swallowing

I bought a realistic squirting dildo that's very thick and about 8 inches long.  It has a suction cup base and when I play with it...it's usually hanging on the shower wall.  It's an intimidating cock that makes my cock stir as I prepare to suck on it.

This past weekend...I made fake cum to use in the dildo.  A mixture of milk, egg whites and sugar.  I put the cum mixture in a cup and took it in the shower to simulate a male orgasm...but enough cum to simulate the volume of 3 to 4 orgasms.

After loading the cum mixture into the plastic squirter...I began to worship the cock.  Sensually licking the head.  Wanting it in my mouth.  Pushing it deeper....bobbing on it....forgetting about things around me.    In a short amount of time....I had become an enthusiastic cock sucker.  My own cock hard.  Moaning like a bitch and thinking about the cum.  I pulled my mouth off the cock to look at its fat head....and squeezed the squirter to make a bit of cum drip out.  When I saw that small drop of cum....I lost it.  I immediately reacted and stared at it....felt it overwhelm me....and I licked it.  I then squirted some on my face....it was so erotic to feel it coat me and drip down.  I felt like a possessed slut.  I then started to suck it again....a faster pace with the intent to simulate actions just before a real cock would shoot....and then....I pushed the cock deep and I sqeezed the squirter in a pulse-like pattern....simulating a real cum shot.  Streams of the cum shot in my mouth.  The cock was deep in my mouth and I purposely kept I there, because I knew if it was a real cock...the man would have held his cock in my mouth.  I felt I had no option, but to swallow.  Just like men do to women, so it was fair to pay the price in return.

My cock was so hard and I was not touching it.  Then, while swallowing the cum....my own cock started to squirt cum.  What a total mind fuck.  It was so intense. 

I'm now more curious about what it would be like to experience something like this on a real cock. Seeing pre-cum and then the desire to try cum.  The power of cock and cum is potent, if you are not careful.

Cum Drinking

A few months ago I ran across a straight sex porn site devoted to an amature couple. The female is a lovely, large-breasted blond with an insatiable appetite for her husband's cock and cum. They film their sexual adventures and post them online. One thing I noticed is that they always capture the cumshot scene. I focus on how the wife loves to touch and please her husbands cock, including caressing his balls as she strokes him off. Eventually....streams of cums cover her smiling face. I wish more women understood how to touch a man's cock and balls in that manner. It's so intimate, gives a strong, healthy orgasm, builds trust and makes a man VERY willing to take care of his wife or girlfriend in non-sexual ways....long after the sexual encounter ended. Men out there...you know exactly what I mean.

After seeing scenes like that...my bisexual/gay side also was intrigued. Seeing how enthusiastic the wife was for his cock and how willing she was to be caught on camera with cum covering her face. I fantasize about a cock making me feel that naughty.

Another act that got me hot....was when she had her husband shoot into a shot glass after stroking and sucking him. Then....she drank the cum from the glass. On other websites, I'd also seen pictures of women holding a drink in a glass...with a cock in the glass...hinting a cum shot into the liquid was forthcoming. I eventually felt the urge to try things like that. Not just little tastes, but swallowing. Cumming in a glass and swallowing my own load of semen.

I eventually tried it a few times, but with a small amount of pineapple juice in the shot glass. Masturbating to various porn pictures....shooting my load in the glass...and then swallowing it all.  Yes, swallowing my entitre load of semen. It gave me a naughty feeling and fucks with my mind, after.  I'm trying to get to the point where there is no pineapple juice in the glass and I can swallow a pure, undiluted load of semen. This is what a man expects a woman to do when she sucks cock...so shouldn't I be prepared for when I suck cock again?