In my teenage years (80's), I had access to pornographic magazines, such as Hustler, Cheri, Oui, etc. As any normal teenager, I would masturbate while viewing females in the pictures. Because I was not able to buy new magazines, I had to view the same women everytime. Eventually, it became mundane, so I began browsing the back pages and discoverd ads with gays and transexuals. I wasn't thinking about right or wrong...I was simply consumed by curiousity. One gay photo stood out and caught my eye. It showed two fairly muscular, smooth men. One was standing in front of the other and he had a long, thick, erect cock. The other was kneeling and performing oral sex. The combination of seeing two masculine, built men having sex, as well as seeing one man having sexual control over another...is what started my curiousity. Little did I know what it would lead to.
Soon after, my fantasies and masturbation desires included a curiousity to suck cock. I felt it was wrong and obviously told noone, but it also gave me that "rush" and excitement because of the taboo. Throughout the rest of my teens and early 20's, I continued to have both straight and gay fantasies. For the purposes of this blog, I will not discuss my straight submissive desires, unless someone is interested. I'm more interested in sharing/discussing my gay submissive desires.
I enjoyed scenes where I was lured/seduced into sucking cock and not able to resist. I became very excited at the idea of a superior man having sexual control over me. I developed an envy for men with superior physiques and bigger cocks. Men who had their choice of women, but preferred the rush of "breaking" a straight or curious type. I had these fantasies on and off for several years, but never tried anything real.
A few years after college, I relocated to the west coast. I lived alone and had a normal life with a balance of work and fun. I recall going a few times at night to the local liquor store to buy straight porn mags...ones I knew also would have gay ads, etc. That satisfied me for a year or so, but then in 1997, I bought a computer and signed up for internet access. I knew I would be able to view porn, but I had no idea how easily I would be seduced by it and what new fantasies it would provoke.
Soon after, my fantasies and masturbation desires included a curiousity to suck cock. I felt it was wrong and obviously told noone, but it also gave me that "rush" and excitement because of the taboo. Throughout the rest of my teens and early 20's, I continued to have both straight and gay fantasies. For the purposes of this blog, I will not discuss my straight submissive desires, unless someone is interested. I'm more interested in sharing/discussing my gay submissive desires.
I enjoyed scenes where I was lured/seduced into sucking cock and not able to resist. I became very excited at the idea of a superior man having sexual control over me. I developed an envy for men with superior physiques and bigger cocks. Men who had their choice of women, but preferred the rush of "breaking" a straight or curious type. I had these fantasies on and off for several years, but never tried anything real.
A few years after college, I relocated to the west coast. I lived alone and had a normal life with a balance of work and fun. I recall going a few times at night to the local liquor store to buy straight porn mags...ones I knew also would have gay ads, etc. That satisfied me for a year or so, but then in 1997, I bought a computer and signed up for internet access. I knew I would be able to view porn, but I had no idea how easily I would be seduced by it and what new fantasies it would provoke.
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